Hmmm so this weekend just been I hit a wall...
I seemed overly emotional (might be to do with my birthday), and everything just seemed to go wrong... I am now looking back and shrugging it off but in the moment I just kept bursting into tears and was drinking Ionix like it was juice!
- I had been seeing a guy and I realised that we just had nothing in common. I ended things on my birthday of all days which was really hard and no matter who calls things off it is a shitty feeling. I guess the fears of being alone again and potentially not finding someone more suited to me crept back in and made me feel highly anxious. (on a side note... I was amazed but how fast Ionix works to calm me back down and feel balanced again). This guys was lovely but all we had in common was exercise, which ironically is a very new part of my life. He was a great cheerleader but more of a PT that a boyfriend. It just didn't feel right for many reasons... Lesson: Don't settle for anything less than you deserve because happiness is everything.
- I have been feeling disheartened because my number on the scales hasn't been moving. This made me feel like I was doing all of this for nothing (even though I knew deep down this wasn't true). I then decided to take some photos for comparison and I realised that in actual fact the changes to my body shape are massive and I am looking and feeling amazing. I realised that because I am boxing 2-3 times per week, doing the cross trainer regularly and also a mini circuit of arm weights and abs... I am building lean muscle which weighs more than fat. I know my muscles are developing because I actually have biceps now and I am hurting in places after boxing that I didn't realise could hurt. Lesson: A number is just a number!
- The chocolate shake incident! Monday morning was rushing to get ready to get to work to interview somebody for a position going in my team. Was feeling nervous anyway because I would be seeing colleagues for the first time in 6 weeks and I have never interviewed anybody before. Made my Isalean chocolate shake and had two mouthfuls and placed in on my bedside table. In the rush of packing my bag I knocked the cup over and it went EVERYWHERE! Down the side of my bed, over the padded valance, my quilted feather blanket, my duvet, the floor, under the bed and on the base, down the side of my bedside table, over all the power cords and all through my make up bag :( I swore....lots! and then tears formed in my eyes as I had to stop and clean it all up - and shake is hard to clean up! Luckily I had left myself time so I wasn't late but I had to run out the door with a bar for breakfast and was more annoyed about wasting and missing out on my morning shake than anything else! Today'y job is to strip the whole bed including valance and take it to the big industrial washers to sort it all out. Lesson: Don't bring shakes into the bedroom!
- I made a huge mistake on my autoship! I was so excited after NYKO about the two ned products that I put my autoship off for a few days so that on the 19th of January I could add milk chocolate Isadelights and Amp'd to my autoship. This was a mistake as it has made me inactive and I have not lost my entire BV. I rang customer support at Isagenix and they said I could use my 'once in a lifetime' restore BV button but I am too scared to use that as it might happen again when I have more to lose. The girl is very kindly going to write for a courtesy restore and explain that the only reason I because inactive was because I was waiting for the new products! Fingers crossed it all works out! Lesson: Keep your autoship date consistent and write it in your diary to remind you! '
Don't worry though - the week has already started to get better and I have learnt to just breath and take a step back from the emotion involved. Things happen and it isn't the end of the world! Plus when things continually go wrong one after the other, then things can only really get better! :)
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